Not Pregnant

So I'm not Pregnant. Why the obvious statement? This last month we did the whole "we aren't preventing" or the "we are not not trying" approach to building a family. I was very tired of condoms ( I think I am allergic) and pointed out that further practice would not be including this form of prevention so it was either no sex or not preventing. We both jumped on the no preventing. Who wants to go with out sex? Hubbs pointed out it would be a February baby. Awesome great! Whatever... Then my period showed up. I was convinced the first 8 hours or so that it could really actually totally be implantion spotting. But seeing how I had never actually heard about that until the last year or two and period was well known and came often it was a short lived 8 hours of hope.  But after that 8 hours... or really about hour 5 I had a huge crash and became pretty darn depressed at not being pregnant. Or at least as pretty depressed as you can be for not actually trying to accomplish anything. I can't even imagine how a women who charts, temps, etc and does everything "by the book" and still didnt' get pregnant can feel. I can only imagine that it is pure hell. I get the whole "failure" and "body not work" look out of the whole process. I didn't completely understand why a women could get so completely lost in the idea each and every single month until now. You get that hope for two or three weeks and then a week long reminder of how poorly things work out, then to just do it all over again and again. Yowzer!

Plans

Funny how when you make plans and they all get messed up, no matter how much since they made.

We are moving. Hubbs got transferred to the east central side of the state. We'll hopefully be there by the end of summer, you know if all goes as planned! HA

Why mention that here? Well I have been off birth control for a month now. We have done the protection thing since we weren't ready ready for a baby, but were were talking the end of summer. But we aren't enjoying the extras that this new protection brings into the picture. This spurred a conversation about really waiting till the end of summer. New job means more money, meaning better to take care of a baby and stay at home mom. So Why not give it a two week window, see how things go and get back on protection during the Vegas trip if there is no baby, or go alcohol free for the next 9 months plus. So, we officially gave it a go with out any protection. We'll see how things work out...